It's come to my attention that the January Blues is real and not some made up bull people go through after the Christmas season is over because there's no more delicious food or presents to be had. I and the majority around me are struggling with a serious case of sadness and low energy, so I'm blaming it on the month, sounds logical? Probably not, but I find it bizarre that so many of us are feeling down with ourselves and our lives at the moment. For me, it's a struggle to get up for work in the morning and always end up thinking 'what am I even doing with my life?'. I could feel like everyone surrounding me is also feeling this because of our age. For young twenty somethings it's hard to be motivated when you're in a job you don't want as a career and spend most of our time there instead of out having a blast. Sadly, we've got to head to our sluggish jobs and make money to pay the landlords, and we can't reach for our dream jobs because it's not deemed realistic. Paying bills is more important than packing it all in and heading for the dream, which is bound to make you feel down.
Top - Topshop by And Finally...
Overalls - Topshop (similar)
Chocker - Primark
Necklace - Bloody Mary Metal
Rings - Bloody Mary Metal and Brandy Melville
I've been thinking over and over about what I want to do in my life and to be honest, I have no clue. Having no fucking idea on where I want to be in five years time is mighty worrying and makes me feel like I'm wasting away somewhere I really don't want to be. But, what else can I do when I don't know what I even want to do? It's all so confusing and has my head in a black cloud of self judgement and hatred. Why haven't I got any serious goals? Why haven't I done anything to be really proud of yet? I'm twenty two years old and still plodding along waiting for something to magically happen to make it all OK.
It's hard to feel 100% happy every hour of everyday, I get that. But it's not ideal when you go through these rough patches of doubt and sadness. I'm hoping once these dreaded January Blues are over I'll be feeling much more motivated and confident about myself and my life because in reality, my life is nothing to complain about.
I've written a few posts like this in the past, about how the daily struggles are a lot to battle with but it's good to have ramble and remember it isn't all that bad. We may not be as successful as the people we aspire to be, but we have so much to give and we will get there. I'm replaying that in my mind to keep me going through this horrible, horrible month of misery. I hope you're all feeling positive for this new year, but if you've been hit by the curse then trust me, it'll be over soon! We'll come out the other side and absolutely smash it!
On a lighter note, I've got my flared overalls back out of the wardrobe as I just had to pair them with my new denim choker. This is double denim done in a whole new, subtler way. As subtle as a piece of denim around your neck can be that is. I may be feeling tad blue but at least my outfits making me feel sassy, there's nothing quite like a killer ensemble to cheer you up a bit!
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